The Agency of Community Redevelopment Explores the Bottom of the Well in search of Something Nutritious, 2011
Nine days after turning forty, I gave birth to my first and only child, my daughter. Mortality now stares back at me daily through her young eyes. I am immersed in cyclical experiences ever since.
As I age it becomes ever clearer that a significant part of life is dedicated to the grieving processes. Elizabeth Kubhler-Ross' Five Stages of Death and Dying, known as The Five Stages of Grief, also known as the "grief cycle", are Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and Acceptance. Kubler-Ross did not intend this to be a rigid series of uniformly timed steps; it's more a framework for modeling the significant (and the less significant) experiences that make up a life.
What do we grieve? Before having a child I never feared my own death, but now I am terrified of it. I find grieving to be a new feared experience, but also a cathartic experience allowing for possibility. Interpreting the grief cycle stimulated the new insights that form this installation. In this gallery are five works mirroring the cycle presented within a meandering framework. Denial is a sound piece created in collaboration with composer Rebecca Kneubuhl. Anger, a larger-than-life red paper crumbled ball holds the tension. Bargaining is a massive black and white swirling wire work suspended from above. Depression, a nine foot cut paper work weighs heavy while Acceptance, an ephemeral translucent hanging banner, begs us into the future with promises of growth.